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Just Bitter

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ColdAmuChan

Published: Oct 25, 2015

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Hard to smile, hard to not.
When I’m broken down
I’m not so tough
I look around me
I’m feeling weak
I’ve never felt so alone
I want to sleep.

I can’t keep running away
But I hear them laugh
No one needs me to stay
I’m sinking down
It’s so dark in this heart
I’m feeling stressed
I’ll be torn apart

I keep screaming
To closed off doors
I keep singing
To hold me on
I’ve been forsaken
Life is a threat
My soul is breaking

This might be the end
I can’t take it
Good bye, my friend
I want to be free
I wish I weren’t who I am
I’m always wrong
Right now, I don’t give a damn

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I have entered a very dark place, my friends. It seems I've forgotten to bring any sort of light source with me. Lets hope I make it back out okay.

I wrote this this very dark night, hoping it'd make me feel better. It's working but now, I wish life could give me a break.

Why is it called "Just Bitter"? People always said that life/love was bitter-sweet. Right now, it just feels.... dark and disgusting.
I hope this feeling passes soon, I'm going insane

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